Official JOURNAL zarin vandergos

She thinks black and white….n  i like a way to pray  u stay in my heart,, n i knew it right to start.   I used to write your name n put it in a frame n sometime I think I hear you call all days.

but its not d same thinks, sometimes i need to fall and break, yea……….its hard to say, but i need to blve dis the right way to learn how hard to makin a relationship for me.

i tryin 2 forget but i wont let go, looking the half street to get u, an tell me how to find u, ……….!!!;(

take me to your heart, n give me ur hand to start the real life. … to get all what i want, an urs.

dont u lose me like this, its heart me, i know u want to makin a great realtionship n a best guy belong. just take me and be my half on my heart……..!!!

yea… i fealt,,,,,,,,,fealt,

even i dont know who are u?, but i believe thats ure my best bet…listen i dont need eyes to see and heart may bring u to me, no matter where i go no matter whre u go after.

Aslong as u believe, n some day ill find u againt. Like I was found u at the registration place in d college. I remember dat, …yea ..somdy……….!!

U just need to believe………and ill always care.

When ‘em asked me to stay away from M & D I just stood there. I couldn’t think of anything to say. Not see M & D? I can’t do that. I love the my fam. I can’t just not see ‘em. Dey can’t just ask me to stay away from some person I loved. It’s not like ‘em loves me or any…, I mean…dey can’t. dey doesn’t. So why does dey care if I see ‘em?

Am I disturb ‘em…………..i don’t thin so…!
That’s not what dey thinks
But dey doesn’t love me! Why does it matter?
How do you know dey doesn’t love you…?”
I just know. Dey  just being leave me.

I through my hands up in anger and screamed. I cannot believe I’m arguing with myself….and I’m not even winning! I looked out the window and saw some people staring at me. Probably wondering if I’m crazy. I don’t care, let them stare. I needed to get out of here. I needed a distraction, something to get myself out of my own head. I picked up my phone. It only rang twice.

“ D & M ? Can we meet up?” I m really miss ‘em.

I fear dats I will always be a lonely number like root 3…! a three is all dat’s good and right Why must my 3 keepout of sight…. beneath a vicious square-root sign?

I wish instead I were a 9 for nine could thwart dis evil trick With just some quick arithmetic I know I’ll never…!! see the sun As 1.7321

Such is my reality a sad irrationality. When, hark, just what is dis I see? another square root of a 3, Has quietly come waltzin by, 2gether now we multiply, 2form a number we prefer, rejoicin… as an integer, we break free from our mortal bonds,  n with a wave of magic wands, our square-root signs become unglued, and …. for me has been renewed…..That was pretty lame….wwwhuahaha…!!!